Witchy Woman's Hideaway

Ya know, there are times when your kids can drive you to the brink of madness and you think to yourself......OMG what was I thinking!!!   lol   But then, there are the times that they make your heart so full, you are sure it will burst with the love inside.  Tonite was one of those nites, a nite that my heart almost hurts from the sheer joy of being their Mom. 

My oldest girl is almost 12.  And she is such a good girl.  Don't get me wrong, she can still push every button I own, but, more often that not, she is such a gift.  She is so freakin smart, about everything.  She seems too wise somedays.  And one of my favourite things is when she and I have one of our "chats".  Now, my family is famous for these kind of sit down heart to hearts.  So, it means the world to me that Katie seems to have adopted this long standing tradition. 

Tonite's chat started with the oddest question.  Katie and I talk about everything.  And since she is getting to the age she is, she has alot of questions that age me at least 10 years everytime, but I answer her as best I can.  And I am always honest.  Of course there are some things she just wouldn't understand, and on the rare occasion I have to tell her that I will explain it when she can understand, she is always okay with that answer.  But, her question tonite was one I could talk to her about and we did.  And from there it ended up being a chat about all kinds of things.  About sex, love, being smart picking boyfriends......you name it, we chatted about it.  

But, as she kissed me goodnite and told me that I was the greatest Mom and that she loved me so much, it hit me so hard, what an amazing daughter I have.  She is my joy, and I know that my time with her needing me so much is limited.  It seems she needs me less and less each day.  That is a brutal reality!  Damn!  

This weekend my husband tore down the tree house he made almost 8 years ago, and I was sad.  It seemed like the end of an era, and then this chat that Katie and I had tonite, just seemed to really point out to me how my babies have grown.  It seemed like the entire universe was giving me a raspberry and showing me just how old I freakin am!!   lol

I am so blessed.  I love the days when it shows itself like this.  She will be an amazing woman.  A strong, intelligent woman who has a mind of her own.  Gawd, that makes me proud.  Proud of her and proud of the way Dave and I have raised her. 

Not only do I have three awesome kids, but I have this man.  This man that makes my heart still do flip flops when he smiles at me.  How mushy is that! 

So, tonite, I won't be sad at how grown my children are, but I think I am going to celebrate just how much we have done in our 15 years together as a couple and then as a family. 

 

I am blessed and my candles will be lit tonite in reverance of that.   Blessings to everyone.

 

 

Well, another blog about my sister.  Ya know, she is such an amazing woman.  I truly do admire her.  She has the capacity to love that I see in very few people.  And tonite, I heard a peace in her voice.   Simply because two people she loves have found their way back to her.  They have found a way past their differences and agreed to disagree on certain issues.  It was so wonderful to hear her voice and the contentment in it.  I didn't want her to lose these two people, but it seemed for awhile that is what was going to happen.  I am not just happy for Kelly, I am so happy for these two other people too.   They are loving people, and I know how much they all mean to each other.  

It takes a very strong person to apologize, and it takes alot of guts too.  I think sometimes it is even harder when you love the one you need to apologize to.  But, when you do, it makes that bond and that love even stronger.

 

I know one thing for certain, my sister and I do not agree on all things.  And we have had some knock down drag outs.  But thru all of that, I never doubted her love for me.  And she knows how I feel about her.  She is the extension of me.  We have had to apologize, oh my gawd, so many times over the years.  But it never stopped us loving each other.   We might be rather bitchy with each other for a bit, but saying we were sorry has never been too hard.  I think we need to thank our Mom for that.

 

There is another thing I can tell you about my sister.  If she loves you, you are there for life.  She takes her friendships very seriously, just like family.  She will defend you and stand beside you, and take care of you no matter what.    All I ask of her friends, is that they remember, she needs to be taken care of sometimes too.  I know how tough she is, but there are days when she needs a bit of care.  Even when she won't admit it.  And you can usually tell by her blogs!!!   lol   Oh man, she is gonna hate me for that one!   Oh well!

I know this is a sappy, chick flick kinda of blog, but I could just feel her happiness tonite when we talked, and that makes me happy. 

 

Brightest blessings to all of you.

hehehe   They are going to use my home to shoot in!!   Can you believe that!  And, they are painting my kitchen a new colour too.  I am still in shock.  This is just too cool, and exciting.  So, next week they will paint and the week after that, shooting starts for two days!   Woohoo!

The strangest thing happened today, and all I could do was scoff at it..........at first.  But, the few hours I was at work proved to be those few hours that scoffed right back at me!!  lol

Today, while lounging with the kids, there was a knock on my door.  I opened it to a man, who, as it turns out, is a location scout for a production company out of TO.  Yep, here in our thriving little town.  And to boot, he was interested in our house and our property.  It seems that there is a new series due to be shot and he wanted to know if he could look around and take a few photos of our place. Inside and out.  Well, I was dumbfounded.  So, he did just that, took quite a few shots outside, only a couple in the house and then he was on his way.  The kids were so excited.  I felt bad tellin them to cool their jets, since I know how many places these scouts have to look into before the director is happy.  I figured that would be the end of it and we probably would never hear from them again.  WRONG!!

I get home to find out from my hubby that they are indeed interested, and I am going to have a slew of them here tomorrow morning, including the director!!!    Holy hell!

All I could think of was seeing my house on TV.  I love my house, even with all it's little flaws.  It is an old house, and I love every inch of it.  She would look awesome on TV!!    lol

So, now, even I am excited.  Mostly at the thought of having my house immortalized on film.    Keep yer fingers crossed, and I wil update after tomorrow!!    :)

 

Well, witch or bitch, depends on my mood.  So, this is just a content warning about my little site.   This is, after all, my personal site.  This site is used for my personal thoughts.  Whether I am venting, rejoicing or yakking with family, again, this is MY SITE!!!    I am typing slowly, for those of you that don't seem to get it!!!   So, that being said, if by chance you happen to catch a vent and think that it is ALL ABOUT YOU, too bad!  I don't really care.  It may very well be about you, but it may very well not be.  Either way, my thoughts. 

If my thoughts upset you or provoke, too damn bad.  Again, to be clear, this is my site.   If it offends you, then don't stop in at all.   Because to be quite honest, I really don't care what your opinion is.   I am tired of nonsense, being accused of shit that oh my gawd, should be clear but seems to elude some people.  I am tired of the rantings of children that are pouting. 

 

So, let's just go over this again.

 

If you don't like what I have said, DON'T COME TO MY SPACE!  This will ensure that there are no misunderstandings, and no bullshit.    See how simple this is??   

 

If I have something to say directly to you, I will email you, have no doubt.  What I will not do anymore is discuss anything my blogs might have referred to.  My thought, my blogs......too fucking bad.   Deal with it.  Get over it.........D) all of the above.

 

 

There aren't many people that I can't find good in.  My hubby says I tend to give people too many chances.  The same can be said for my sister.  Gawd, if I had even a penny for the number of times that she called me hurt and worried over someone, I would be a wealthy woman.  Freakin wealthy.  She is worse than me.  I mean that in a nice way, but it has caused her so much hurt.  And, she was constantly put in the middle of shit that she shouldn't have had to deal with.  Today she called me, sad.  That is the worst thing for me.  When she is sad, I can feel it all these miles apart.  But, even though she was sad, I am hoping she can see the benefit of what has happened. 

She has been put in the middle of this family's drama for far too long.  For all these years though, she has loved and worried about one in particular.  And I have loved her too.  This person has had alot of rough times in her life, some self inflicted and some caused by other people.  There have been alot of shitty things said about this person, and through it all, Kell defended her.  When this person needed tough love, she came to Kell.  When the family put her down and wanted nothing to do with her, well, Kell always loved her.  And nothing could be said to make Kell change how she felt about this person.  And nothing ever will.

See, this is something that I have always been very proud of about us kids.  We didn't accept that a person was bad just because someone else said so.  Never judge a book by it's cover and all that jazz.  There are always some exceptions to this rule as I have recently found out, but that is something else.  

While hearing how sad Kell was today, and even though I love this person too, I have decided maybe it is a good thing that all this stupid shit happened.  It all started over a complete misconception, but maybe, just maybe, it is a good thing.   As sad as it makes me to think that this person won't be a part of her life, I think maybe the time has come for Kell to cut her losses and get out. 

I think it is time to just let go.   This family just seems to thrive on hurting each other.  I never thought this one person would, after all these years, take this type of stand, but it seems that she would rather believe untruths than remember all she has known of Kell. 

I think that is why Kell sounded so sad.  She wouldn't intentionally hurt anyone, unless backed into a corner.  But she was threatened.  Along with threats concerning her daughter, her business etc.  And all Kell did was, when asked to pick sides, she wouldn't, and when the shit started to fly, she spoke a few truths that someone didn't like. 

Since I know you will be reading this Kelly, this is my message to you. 

Ya know, Kell hun, it is time.  You will always be tied to this family, and for your daughter, that is how it should be.  No matter what, they love her and she loves them.  But, sweetie, it is time for you to remove yourself from the drama.    There are a few of the family that will always be with you, and for that, you are lucky.  But they are the ones that love you and know you and don't place conditions on you.  They don't ask you to pick sides and only love you when you agree with them.  They can disagree with you and not say shitty things about you.  They will celebrate with you and weep with you and always be there for you, not just when it is convenient.   Be joyful that you have them.    But, let go of any that expect you to just agree with them, and want you to be mad at someone else just because they are, and want you to let go of others because they say so.   You don't need this Kelly. 

I know you and I don't always agree, and there are times I am sure you would like to take a swing at me, but if nothing else, we have always told each other the truth whether we like it or not.  And you might not like me after this, but it won't be the first time and i am sure it won't be the last!!!   lol    Let it all go darlin.  Even though you love her, let her go.  If this is what she wants, let her go.  If she wants to believe all the bullshit, let her.  Because it just shows she didn't really know you.  Please stop fretting about it and trying to figure it all out. 

Just know that there are those of us who love you no matter what.  Through everything and always.   

Anyone I have spoke of in this blog will know who they are.  And for the one in particular that I have spoke of, this is my message to you.  She really does love you.  And it makes me just as sad that after all these years, this is what it has come to.  I love you too hun, but if you want to believe such shit, I am not going to waste my time trying to convince you otherwise, because in my opinion, it is something you should already know.  I do have one question for you.  In all the shit that you have been thru, did Kell ever turn her back on you??   When you needed her, did she ever turn you away??  

 

I think this is all so sad hun, cause she really does love you.

 

Kell hun, I love you.

Well, it has been ages since I have been in here to post a blog, but these past few days have given me a reason.  And after tonite, a really good reason to speak my mind.   A few days ago, I had the misfortune of meeting a new person.  Yes, I said misfortune and I meant it.   Quick history, someone verbally attacked my sister over a complete misconception.  To boot, this was someone who has never met my sister.   Now I admit, I am probably somewhat biased where my sister is concerned, but there are so many people that love my sister, I know I am not the only one biased.   I do not take kindly to anyone attacking one of my family members, especially when they are COMPLETELY wrong, and have no basis for the attack.   Needless to say, that got the ire of this Irish witch just boiling!!   So, I spoke my piece.   Seems this did not go over very well.  Oh well, didn't bother me in the least.  But, what ensued was complete idiosy!   These women would not and could not accept the fact that they were wrong.   Ok, whatever.  Deal with it. 

Now, what has prompted this blog is the fact that one of these women decided to come onto MY space and show her complete lack of class and leave a rather nasty tidbit for me.   I have broad shoulders and it didn't bother me at all.  It just showed her lack of character.  What does bother me is that my oldest daughter has read it just today.   And now, I will have to explain to her that there are people that can not accept the fact that they have made a mistake,  be a grown-up and admit it and handle things in a manner acceptable for their age.  Nope, now I have to tell her that there are adults, such as the one in question, that resort to trailer park trash language. 

I have taught my kids that it is ok to make mistakes and it is ok to say "I was wrong".  Gawd, I am so glad I did that.  At least I know they will never become someone like this person.    Makes them a better person.  What is sad is that my 12 yr old can say she is wrong and accept and learn from her mistake, but some adults can't. 

I am also grateful that my three kids have respect, and manners, something very lacking these days.

To make things perfectly clear, I did tell this woman off, but at least I did it in a manner befitting my stature as an adult.  And I did it in proper english, not foul mouthed bashing. 

It just makes me sad that my 12 yr old saw it.   I have left this persons comment on here as a testament to her character, and just so my daughter can see what we don't want her to become. 

 

The comment is under my "nothing really" blog.    Take a peek if you feel inclined to do so.  Otherwise, take my word for it, not so nice!!!

 

Later all.